I'm so avoident
How do I keep spinning
My wheels around the things
That I really want?
How do you value
Your priceless affairs?
I keep running from the things that I care
I promised myself I would try
Even if it kills me
Thought I'd laugh about it
But I quit smoking weed
How did I get here?
I only followed things that
Make me happy
So why am I crying?
Every day is a new struggle
Why do I believe that I can fight it?
I've got it all figured out
Every day I'm trying, hiding, fighting, coward
Losing piece by piece
What is the cost of being happy?
Salty tears
On the black ink of my skin
Realizing what I've been asking
How do I make it stop?
How do I ask you
for the things I don't got?
How do you value
Your priceless affairs?
I keep running from the things that I care
I promised myself I would try
Even if it kills me
Thought I'd laugh about it
But I stopped smoking weed
How did I get here?
I only followed things that
Make me happy
So why am I crying?
Every day is a new struggle
Why do I believe that I can fight it?
I've got it all figured out
Every day I'm trying, hiding, fighting, coward
Losing piece by piece
What is the cost of being happy?
Use me as a vessel for your desire
I ain't got none
Mold me into what you want for yourself
I am no one
Dehumanizer
Paint me just like one of
Your tens of millions of dollars
Pain me til it's painless
Fill me til I'm overflowing
Dehumanizer
Something inside me burns
For the freedom that you take
And when it's locked away
I want it more
Something inside me warns
That this is not okay
But I will do my best
To keep things the same
And I'll do it for you
I'll do it for you, I'll do it for you
Just like you asked me to
Dehumanizer
Tell it to my face
Swallow me up in your embrace
Do you have the gusto?
Do you have the guts?
Do you have the muscle
To grind me into dust?
It’s time to break you down
It’s time for something new now
Gold star for chaser boy
And how
It’s inside of me, I know because it hurts
Let you in, regret it, vicious cycles are the worst
Could you punish me for letting you defile me?
Hang it on your wall, you get a gold star
Well if I wasn’t so goddamn sad
I wouldn’t let you make me feel so bad
Can’t you see I’m lonely, bitter, and estranged?
Torn apart til the only love I can get is strange
It’s time to break me down
It’s time for something raw now
Gold star for chaser boy
And this, and this, and this, and this is how
It’s inside of you, I know how much it hurts
Let me in, regret it, vicious cycles are the worst
I will punish you for turning me into a thing
You’re my baby bird, now I’m gonna make you sing
I wanna be real clean
Wanna be a pretty girl
One who wakes up in the world and doesn't see
Trash as far as the eye can see
I want to wake up and be clean
I think I left the door unlocked
Let my house burn into
The only thing that I could never solve
Self pity, beats me
Wake up late
Till Sunday
What happened to my Monday?
Could brunch still
Be okay? x4
Oh look what I made a mess of me
Haven't showered in at least a week
Oh what do I think I'm waiting for
Some sign I could be a better girl
So nice so clean, responsible
Oh wow she really let her self
Go to hell, meet my mom
Bet you two would get along
Wake up late
Till Sunday
What happened to my Monday?
Could brunch still
Be okay? x4
I think I left the door unlocked
Let my house burn into
The only thing that I could never solve
Self pity, beats me
Wake up late
Till Sunday
What happened to my Monday?
Could brunch still
Be okay? x4